“I'm being suicidal a lot from past few days, all I can think of is the trauma my family gave me, when I think of the better things they did for me they dissappoints me ever more with an argument or clash, I think of getting therapy or depression test but I'm unable to get it because of not having enough time and procrastinating, I don't do anything for myself at all, I've always tried to be enough for my family but Ig I never will be, I don't evn wanna go to uni i feel overwhelmed by the people around me in uni, I've evn stated smoking out of stress and I push away the ppl who try to help me I wanna talk to someone but I push them away, I had wrote a lot better elaborated in my last paragraph but... It didn't get published for some glitch and now I don't have the same energy i... I.. I jst dk I feel like I lost my spark and u pretend to be happy some time and I get dry sad and nonchalant again, nothing excites me evn those things that used to and nothing makes me happy. Ig I lost myself -well_youwouldntwannaknowme”

Another soul answered...

Hi stranger, today u came to this website through imsta reel. I was over filled with emothions. You know the feeling of tightness in chest. I came so i rent out. I have people i call mine. And i know they are willing to listen me out, to help me. But somedays we just cant. And i get this feeling. The thought of not burdening them with our problems. And its fine. Its fine stranger. You dont wanna talk to your people, its totally fine. I can be your person for this message. You know family. A small simple word with a simple meaning( people we call ours) but if we look deep down its complex. Families are complicated. They really do are. Honestly i dont know what to say that will even slightly calm yoyr nerves. I all want our family to see their child proudly. You know it was not the one time i do feel alot, all the time i am not enough, i am not doing enough for people i call home, my family. I wanna be enough but i dont know what i do. I once messaged my friend i said i feel i am not enough. Whatever i do its never enough. My friend did not knew what to say. What to tell me. And today i dont know whar to say to you. I am sorry stranger. My friend only told me i am here for you. I am always here. And you are always enough for me. Today i can only say these words to you. Hey stranger i am here for you. And you are enough for me. We all think our problems are big but seeing others facing theirs problems makes us realize how small ours are. I am not saying your feelings are not valid. They are. They really are. I will not say much. But i will give you one advice. Dont try too hard. Sometime letting go is best decision you make. Let it go. Let people being disappointed with you. Whatever happens, nothing really happens. I tried being enough. Nothing happened. Try other way. Nothing to lose. Right!!! Go grab a coffee. Have desert. Rome the streats. Have fun. For one day. Go see people around you. Observe everything. Come home watch movie. And take a sleep. Start the next day. Take a wild decision. Do what you never did. Give yourself another chance. Who knows what might happen. Bye stranger. Hope yoy enjoy your tomorrow.

Another soul answered...

Try listening to music and thinking about what future holds for you. Try Magic shop, zero o clock by bts. If you don’t know bts they are a seven member K-pop boy group, they are well known for thier self love music they gave comfort to suicidal people, if you know bts I know people say bts are gay or waste but trust me they saved me their lyrics gave me comfort. I used to cry my heart out listening to those songs because of it I didn’t go back to suicide then my family noticed the change in my behaviour ( my suicidal thoughts came from school and i couldn’t tell my family )

Another soul answered...

im sorry you feel this way, i bet youve heard that alot. sometimes trying to approach with kindness isnt always the way to go when your in the viper pit. if your not ready then your not, but try find something to be ready for. i run off spite. some run on ambition and some ego. find the one that makes you run, and if none of them do? then just run away. find the nooks and cranys in life, spend a day of watching cleaning tiktok videos to inspure yourself to clean but never do it anyway, go to uni just to be there, you dont have to like it but you can try make it likeable. im only a college student but i bring music with me, a plush i bring a few things actually. and it makes me feel a bit more sane. some people find themselves in the woods, and while the wildlife people say, stay still so people will find you, i say no, run for the hills make the ost of it, someone might never come for you but that doesnt mean its over, make your own path! i belive in you, even though i dont know who you are. you got this. even if you do nothing, you still got this - random guy also having a mental breakdown

Another soul answered...

What I've learnt is, spark was never meant to stay forever. In order to create a fire, you have to make a lot of sparks. And about what you were feeling, I am no doctor but it is called as emotional anesthesia. I would suggest if you are suicidal, talk to someone you trust more than your life, like your best friend, just having a person who just listens to what you want to say and not giving any advice, it helps a lot. I would suggest you to talk to a therapist or atleast call the helpline number. They might help you more than my message does.