“I'm an Indian girl from a middle-class family who are quite an indians by which I mean they think a lot more about what people would say than what their kids actually want and want to be treated so I do have the little bit of Indian mindset that dominates my own wishes dreams goals and even thoughts to full fill. I live in a joint family which just shows as a joint family to the works but not to each other at home. When I was small for say 3-5th class my cousin sister showed me adult🔞 scenes and how to play with my private parts and when my mom dad sister found out about that they feaded in my mind that was so so so wrong I shouldn't have done that and all and my own sister also stopped talking to me when I was in 5th class and till now she's the same but over time in beginning I was trying very best that she talks back to me but eventually lost every hope by seeing how much even everyone cared about it one day my mom told me why she stopped talking was because I used to stare at her when she changes and even touch her inappropriately which she obviously didn't like but I was too young to even understand what I was doing the words my parents say and the negative reaction I have received from everyone built a guilt in me for getting addicted to seeing adult scenes even now I try controlling but any intimate thought just drives me back to seeing and doing it so I don't understand what to do am I really wrong”
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I totally understand what you mean, I know how exhausting living in India can be but you need to understand this addiction messes with your brain, it turns you into monster..first and foremost block all sort of websites..don't leave any loop holes for you to relapse, completed block the root and when your tempted GET UP FROM THAT PLACE AND WALK AWAY TO ANOTHER PLACE filled with people and if you're alone...distract yourself
And before all of that if you do believe in God, pray!!!
Also you need to hate p*** and mast********...trick your brain.
Tell yourself is an disgusting habit
But remember this doesn't make you an disgusting person..no one is perfect most of us are exposed to the dark side at a very young age so instead of blaming yourself get up and figure out how to do this..no one knows you better than yourself, these are just a few tips I can give you but you need to do it your way to get out of this cycle:)
Love you, don't worry everything will be alright