I'm a teen indian girl - eldest of 5 siblings .
And sometimes I just wanna run away because everything is soo weird . My siblings are irritating aff and always doing something to ruin my peace of mind . I'm not an introvert but whenever I'm with them everything feels like ending. They scream a ALOTTTTT even though I spend most of my time in my room alone or at school , i still have to be with them during dinners , lunch , family time , to watch tv etc ? And that 3-4 hours are enough to make me wish I was dead .
I just wanna get out of this house but living in a hostel or somewhere else isn't an option bcz my family is patriarchal
WHATTT SHOULD I DOO ?? yesterday I cried for 4 hours straight
I'm soo overwhelmed and stressed i wanna make it out of this house and city and country if possible lol

Question

I'm a teen indian girl - eldest of 5 siblings .
And sometimes I just wanna run away because everything is soo weird . My siblings are irritating aff and always doing something to ruin my peace of mind . I'm not an introvert but whenever I'm with them everything feels like ending. They scream a ALOTTTTT even though I spend most of my time in my room alone or at school , i still have to be with them during dinners , lunch , family time , to watch tv etc ? And that 3-4 hours are enough to make me wish I was dead . 
I just wanna get out of this house but living in a hostel or somewhere else isn't an option bcz my family is patriarchal 
WHATTT SHOULD I DOO ?? yesterday I cried for 4 hours straight 
I'm soo overwhelmed and stressed i wanna make it out of this house and city and country if possible lol

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

Ik it's tough being the eldest, everyone excepts alot and never understands you but trust me you don't want to run away from family but the house and you need to do that. The only thing you can do is fight for yourself, go out find your peace built a home and then come back to the family and you will be treated better. Ik siblings are irritating but trust me only you can help yourself. Fight for yourself go out. Or if you can't go to a hostel find some way to earn money, you can do online job, paid interships do something but try to earn money gives you independence. For the immediate solution ignore, find things that make you happy, talk to people make friends share them how you feel. Work hard and find an escape and remember you are loved and you are not alone. You are veryyyyy strong and when universe will give you happiness it would be very unexpected and beutiful.