idk if anybody's gonna read this but idek where to start im not even sure if i wanna talk about it.... and this is my first time using this site...

i had an intense bond w a guy for less than a week. infatuation yes.... but smth happened and i felt he's not the right for me.... many things we had in common, spirituality, wants, ambitiousness and a want for a deep bond not just surfacial... got broken.
its very oldfashioned but we didn't wanna waste time if we knew we weren't right for each other. so he thought, maybe we wouldn't end up together in future because of family issues.... he thought maybe its best to stop talking.... i was sad, told him maybe we could make things work if we really wanted.... but he was unsure, so i said okay and left. told him im blocking him.... he comes textjng me w a new account, almost immediately, saying he was wrong.... i was adamant its better that we stopped talking.... but he kept persuading, he kept begging, at a point i kinda trusted him... it took him the whole evening and even i felt happy, maybe he's good.... but there was this one decision i told him about.... my wants for staying childfree..... 99.9% we had a chance to make things work out. but this one statement broke it up.....
ik you may find it childish as fuck. but seriously I can't be bothered if I don't have a future w a particular guy, it just wastes my time and hurts me. so i try to stay single for most of the time. almost after 2 years i felt like i found someone but i was wrong, thats the thing which hurt.
i felt we had things in common.... he did too.... yes it was quite soon but at this point is it even shocking?
its just, im confused on whether we had the "awareness gap" bc i could never be w a person like that. even now i think, yea maybe its the best for both of us but the thoughts keep disturbing me....

ik this happens on the first day of the no-contact phase.... just wanted to write it out... thats all, feel free to give me any kinds of suggestions... or not. thank you.

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idk if anybody's gonna read this but idek where to start im not even sure if i wanna talk about it.... and this is my first time using this site...

i had an intense bond w a guy for less than a week. infatuation yes.... but smth happened and i felt he's not the right for me.... many things we had in common, spirituality, wants, ambitiousness and a want for a deep bond not just surfacial...  got broken. 
its very oldfashioned but we didn't wanna waste time if we knew we weren't right for each other. so he thought, maybe we wouldn't end up together in future because of family issues.... he thought maybe its best to stop talking.... i was sad, told him maybe we could make things work if we really wanted.... but he was unsure, so i said okay and left. told him im blocking him.... he comes textjng me w a new account, almost immediately, saying he was wrong.... i was adamant its better that we stopped talking.... but he kept persuading, he kept begging, at a point i kinda trusted him... it took him the whole evening and even i felt happy, maybe he's good.... but there was this one decision i told him about.... my wants for staying childfree..... 99.9% we had a chance to make things work out. but this one statement broke it up..... 
ik you may find it childish as fuck. but seriously I can't be bothered if I don't have a future w a particular guy, it just wastes my time and hurts me. so i try to stay single for most of the time. almost after 2 years i felt like i found someone but i was wrong, thats the thing which hurt.
i felt we had things in common.... he did too.... yes it was quite soon but at this point is it even shocking? 
its just, im confused on whether we had the "awareness gap" bc i could never be w a person like that. even now i think, yea maybe its the best for both of us but the thoughts keep disturbing me....

ik this happens on the first day of the no-contact phase.... just wanted to write it out... thats all, feel free to give me any kinds of suggestions... or not. thank you.

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

In a relationship, future matters as much as present and you did the right thing in putting your thoughts across to him, if it had come as surprise then we would never know what the outcome would be and how it would be. You know everything, what it is and what you should do. I believe you must keep this matter behind for some time and get you back on track with your own life. See what ways your life felt beautiful, what things makes you happy and be at peace and do them. There is this one drama called Summerstrike, it's a K-drama. I'm recommedning you to watch this not because it is related to romance and your situation with him but it's more about how beautifully you can live your life when you are not dependent on someone's love and care and how important it is to care for yourself, that's what the drama shows. I don't know whether you would want to consider this suggestion but I truly wish this helps you.