“I want to cry there is this unopened box of feelings of guilt of sadness of disappointment and no matter how much I feel and i want to cry i can't. It's like I have become a person for which emotions are just nothing I want to feel but i all i feel is emptiness and void
I have tried to kill myself thrice by eating 20 pills at a time but even that too didn't work and I don't know what to do
I am empty from within it's like everyday I lose little by little my sanity”
I don't know I just feel like my existence has no meaning. It's like death would have a greater meaning in my life
Frankly if there were less painful way of killing myself i would have killed myself long ago
Like i cant seem to cry ,I can't seem to feel anything
It's just a void in my heart which has lost what it felt like to be cared for to be cherished to be loved for who i am ,not something I could be or something I was
I just want to cry myself to death”
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Someone answered with kindness...Thanked by the asker
I am so sorry that you are going through this. Your life matters!! After reading your story, it made me realize that you are beautiful blank canvas which is yearning to be painted by colours. Idk why you are feeling and thinking this way. I think you should immediately seek therapy for sure. I totally understand when you are in that phase of life where you are numb and void of emotions. I think you need a break, go somewhere and travel. Explore things that make you feel something. I know it sounds hard to do but when a lost wanderer is deep inside a deep dark forest, the wanderer has to find a way out of misery ro survive. I really hope find yourself back and feel something in life. Good luck!!