I recently broke up with my long distance girlfriend , it all started with a text in February and we haven't met each other until till now. we used have constant arguments , and i think i was the fault , because i texted her because i has a crush on her and i think i forced it to all as love , cause people all around me are in relationships and i thought it's my time to start an relationship , although i have faced many rejections previous but this girl is the only one who is not rude to me, all previous rejections are very brutal, they used to block me in face and they even used to make fun of me with their friends but she is the one who at least not rude. but , i was unable to feel her love , it was like i was still in the talking stage, cause she was never into this relationships and was very innocent like a school girl. In august , we both have entered different engineering colleges she was in a women's college and i was into a normal one. Suddenly i was attracted to another girl in my class and i don't know why at that moment i knew i was the mistake . i even confessed this new girl in my class that i have a crush and guess what she blocked me in insta right on my face . I was in grief , at this moment i knew i was looking for that love but not for her. so i broke up with my long distance girl and i got to know that i was not correct for her. and i was ashamed to admit that i do watch adult videos so much and i want to end that . it literally ruined me . all i want is to be loved and chosen by someone but i guess there is no one. it feels like no one cares about my feelings , about what i think. i just want to be loved and chosen by someone

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I recently broke up with my long distance girlfriend , it  all started with a text in February and we haven't met each other until till now. we used have constant arguments , and i think i was the fault , because i texted her because i has a crush on her and i think i forced it to  all as love , cause people all around me are in relationships and i thought it's my time to start an relationship , although i have faced many rejections previous but this girl is the only one who  is not rude to me, all previous rejections are very brutal, they used to block me in face and they even used to make fun of me with their friends but she is the one who at least not rude. but , i was unable to feel her love , it was like i was still in the talking stage, cause she was never into this relationships and was very innocent like a school girl. In august , we both have entered different engineering colleges she was in a women's college and i was into a normal  one. Suddenly i was attracted to another girl in my class and i don't know why at  that moment i  knew i was the mistake . i even confessed this new girl in my class that i  have a crush and guess what she blocked me in insta right on my face . I was in grief , at this moment i  knew i was looking for that love but not for her. so  i broke up with my long distance girl and i got to know that i  was not correct for her. and i was ashamed to admit that i do watch adult videos so much and i want to end that . it literally ruined me . all i want is to be loved and chosen by someone but  i guess there is no one. it feels like no one cares about my feelings , about what i think. i just want to be loved and chosen  by someone

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

Well it's not just about you wanting someone to love and choose you, you're expecting the other person to love you like "what you know as love" The love, you watched your friends do, or the movie you watched, but everyone has different way of expressing their love. Give yourself a time. There is world behind the love, don't rush!