“I know this would sound really weird but I have an elderly figure in relatives and I was really fascinated by him. I kind of idealised him. That happened because one night we just happened to be alone and then we talked till late night and that was the first time ever I felt like I had a proper conversation with someone. And since then he left a deep mark on me. Later after few years we happen to talk again but this time I was grown and he was too. So it was different somehow for me, it was more intense. And then we used to all occassionally but I have always had this weird feeling because from everyone else I have known him to be very detached and practical person but he appeared opposite in our conversations. And then one night we talked till late and then he said something really weird and that's how I got to know that there could be a different angle to this thing and he might have perceived it all wrong though later he didn't admit when I confronted. After that I met him twice and I guess he got the hint that that's not how everything was from my side but still now I can't stop thinking from that perspective. I can't stop thinking and I feel so ashamed of myself . That was never my intention or feeling to begin with but now that this angle in introduced I can't help thinking from that perspective. We are still in touch but I am tormented and at the same time I can't cut him off completely. There's four years of feelings there. So I don't know what I am feeling. I feel guilty everytime I talk to him. Even though I think he is at fault but I don't know what this all means and what he thinks about it. For clarity he is 11 years older than me.”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Confront to a mature female friend whom u can trust because even if u confront that man he might freak or lash out on u