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“I just want to know how u feel being alive and doing things we Never want to”

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Someone answered with kindness...

I feel it is not okay. There have been several things which I never wanted to do but it was somehow required of me. Like all my education , the vision of my ideal life is a house with high ceiling and two cats and two turtles but for achieving that there is just so much to do like to reach there I would need yours of doing what I don't want. Sometimes I just feel hollow nothing excites me anymore and its almost like I have stopped looking forward to anything. Even my milestone birthday or a trip I went to, it feels like I just think to myself that I am just drifting through the moment and it will pass and that's all.

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Can someone spare their time and listen to me, and just tell me I'm okay? That I'll be fine? That I'll be good?I am an over thinker, i think alot like my mind is always running 24/7 but only negatively. I dont think anything that is positive. And also i have anger issue and also i have a bad habit of lying for self defence. I overthink and feel like i need to lie so that they dont know the truth instead of accepting what happened i lie. I have a lot of issues in my life right now, i have a lot in my plate. I usually cant be friends with someone for long but i made 2 friends i from college and another from work i got close with both of them and introduced them to each other. I listen to people and sometimes i share things to someone else without realizing or i think i feel like its okay which i know it isnt. So in October it was 3 of us birthday and we were about to celebrate mine and one of my friends birthday together but i dont know i started to act weird because i dont know i was feeling like they would do anything for me and all and also i had some personal problems which i havent told anyone. So because of that situation they both started to talk about me and they were hurt and when they talked they found contradicting things about what i told. I dont remember because i have a bad habit of not remembering the important stuff and also when i am angry about something or someone i have to vent and when i am venting i am not in my right mind i dont realize what i say or complain about. Now they both are angry with me and i apologized to both but it looks like its normal but its not i know its my fault but right now i dont have the energy to put efforts and talk about it in person. I dont know what to do do i let go of them or try harder.Will it all be okay? I don't know. I don't know. People are so mean. So mean. How am I supposed to live. Everyday I wake up with no motivation. You know, a rope and a fan sometimes seems easier. I think, that would be it.