“I just feel lost. I have been waiting for this particular thing for quite a few years and lost the opportunity, I don't know where to start. I don't have the strength to start from scratch again and i feel lazy and have been procrastinating for a long time now. I don't know where to start and what to do and the time just goes by. I feel alone and I don't know when my life is going to change. I know I have to do something for that, but I don't know what to do for that to happen.”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Heyy i came here to rant about the exactly same thing. Sorry i can't give a solution. But i can relate this sooo much.
Be patient with yourself. I hope you find the strength to start again:)