“I have never lived a life like normal person like going to school making friends or going ti college going on trips parties having friends never done anything like that and now i am 22 year old I can’t do any of that its all because my parents decided that they should setup me for marriage at the age of 4 year old to a guy who was 10 year older than me it was like an agreement that when i turn 18 or 16 i would have to marry him so they trained me to make me a good wife i was so fed up with all that than i runaway from home at the age of 18 with little to almost no money i tried to build the life that i always wanted but i don’t know what went wrong and i think i wasted all those years now i feel so lonely cause i have no one with me my parents i talk to them now sometimes but they just ask me for money and money in this journey there were times were i had no money to even eat anything i just feel like even after running away from them i feel like life is still not better i still don’t have any friends bcz i never learned how to makr friends and now its so hard I can’t go to regular college cause i have to work and i am so confused about everything i feel like such a loser that why didn’t i tried harder i just want to be happy but sometimes i didn’t even know what happiness is and there is something I can’t just explain whenever i even get a bit happy i don’t know why i get chills like my body hair just stands like all my life my parents have criticised me like who make their child do all the house work at the age of 8 like you are just training them to be someone’s wife they never really invested anything on me and now they calls and ask me what gifts are you getting us how much are you earning i just wants to be loved you know and on top of that there was a guy i trusted the most we started living together and one day we had a fight he almost beat me to death than he said he won’t do it again and before all these happened we were going to go Vietnam like tickets were booked hotels were also booked we went to Vietnam we booked an airbnb on the mountain and it was made of glass and there he tried to rape me he was beating me again and again trying to take my clothes off than he stopped after I begged him so much I don’t even have anyone to tell this i said i didn’t raped you i just tried and you don’t even have the proof so and it what fucking my birthday trip I don’t know he was so good guy like a an angel i know him for 1 year i don’t why he did that he were just friends i made it clear and he agreed so i just wanted to ask this that why do life have to be life this and is it going to be more harder in future or not i feel like i have tried enough no matter what i do everything keeps going wrong”
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Someone answered with kindness...
you have had a hard life. not going to school was a hundred percent your parents' fault and not yours. it's unlikely that you will have such bad luck in the future. there are jobs for people who are good at housework, but i understand if you want something higher paying and it's frustrating. if he beat you, you should have marks and that's proof. dont beleive him about what is and isnt proof because he'll lie to you. i hope you find independance and good relationships