I have lot of suffering in life. I believe in God a lot. I take his name when good or bad things happen but sometimes I question my faith in him. I have begged him , grovelled and sobbed for hours for him to help me out of my misery. Gosh I want him to take me away from this life. I beg to him so pathetically.
I feel like a sinner to even doubt him the slightest because he knows the best.
But is this all there is to my life. Is there no end to this misery?
I want to unalive myself but I am scared to face him and go against him and the rules of life. But one day very close I might be at my limit.

I feel so pathetic

Question

I have lot of suffering in life. I believe in God a lot. I take his name when good or bad things happen but sometimes I question my faith in him. I have begged him , grovelled and sobbed for hours for him to help me out of my misery. Gosh I want him to take me away from this life. I beg to him so pathetically. 
I feel like a sinner to even doubt him the slightest because he knows the best. 
But is this all there is to my life. Is there no end to this misery?
I want to  unalive myself but I am scared to face him and go against him and the rules of life. But one day very close I might be at my limit.

I feel so pathetic

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

I also believe in god a lot, i believe that life has it's own path of flow. Something that is meant for you will somehow reach you but yeah life can feel so bad and like hell, trust me I've been there but with time what i realised is it's not that i was lacking i like to think it wasn't meant to be. Many things happened that made me realise that whatever happened made me what I'm today. Life a such a beautiful thing with a bit of gratitude. You are unique you're not pathetic, just slow down a bit and let things unfold. I don't know what you've been through life, but don't give up please, you are you the best. Please seek a professional who can help you go through this it does help . Please please please do not think about ending your life , it's a gift from god . God will help us someway or another. Please seek professional help talk to someone you know or you think you can do that comfortably, maybe a friend or family or your neighbour or anyone you can talk to. 
I wish you courage and love PLEASE DO NOT GIVE UP. YOU ARE PRECIOUS. YOU ARE WORTHY. YOUR MISERY WILL PASS. 
I PRAY TO GOD FOR YOU. AMEN