i hate everything i was mad for a girl did a lot of thigs for her planned a whole life we were a gropu of four friends 2 girls 2 boys i had a huge crsuh on this girl in our group we studied together i taught her i gave her gifts she worte mt records for me we hung out but then i suddenly realised the other guy was always more important than i ever was she used to car about him mores she listened to him more he lies about everything she dind reciprocate to my efoorts at all she was doing things behind my back studying in calls and lying to me saying i wanna study alone when i ask the string snapped someday i messaged her saying i thought we could be together but the things you are doing rn i dont think itll ever workout i need space she turned it into a whole thing saying i ruined what we had and that i had bad intention then i left her then she came i forgave her she started talking normally i kept my distance i was still healing iwas trying to be safe one day she suddenly says she and the other guy are a thing now and i felt like killing myself my life feels empty full of soorow i feel dull weak and exhausted with everything i am getting shitty thoughts and i told the guy before that if he had feelings for her id not interfere but he said no so i proceeded he used me going on a rant and fighting with her which was because of him btw to get closer to her and become her bf i really really really hate myself for idk what reason and my anger is touching peajs

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i hate everything i was mad for a girl did a lot of thigs for her planned a whole life we were a gropu of four friends 2 girls 2 boys i had a huge crsuh on this girl in our group we studied together i taught her i gave her gifts she worte mt records for me we hung out but then i suddenly realised the other guy was always more important than i ever was she used to car about him mores she listened to him more he lies about everything she dind reciprocate to my efoorts at all she was doing things behind my back studying in calls and lying to me saying i wanna study alone when i ask the string snapped someday i messaged her saying i thought we could be together but the things you are doing rn i dont think itll ever workout i need space she turned it into a whole thing saying i ruined what we had and that i had bad intention then i left her then she came i forgave her she started talking normally i kept my distance i was still healing iwas trying to be safe one day she suddenly says she and the other guy are a thing now and i felt like killing myself my life feels empty full of soorow i feel dull weak and exhausted with everything i am getting shitty thoughts and i  told the guy before that if he had feelings for her id not interfere but he said no so i proceeded he used me going on a rant and fighting with her which was because of him btw to get closer to her and become her bf i really really really hate myself for idk what reason and my anger is touching peajs

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

If you ever catch feelings for someone you should never expect anything from them. Just because you did something for her doesn't mean she owe you. I understand your pain. I was in your place before.  I did everything I could but still it was never enough.  She knows I have feelings for her,she knows I love her so much. But what can we do if she has feelings for someone else? Just like how we expect others to respect our emotions we should always respect others emotions and feelings too. What if just what if you don't deserve her? What if God is doing this to protect you? May be someone else is waiting for you and thats not the one who you taught?. Nothing is wrong with you. Your care and love was pure but the person who you have choosen was wrong. Don't loose hope. What is meant for you will always find you. You don't have to force' anything. You Just have to wait.