“I feel very void and I really don't know why like I have people around me.. My family and all but still feel lonely. It's like no one understands me or even want to understand me, just wanting me to mould the way they want and don't want to know me. I am very hard from outside so never show any emotions to anyone it's just when someone close like my family is there my vulnerable side comes out I sometimes cey in front of my mum so she thinks I'm too weak I won't be able to handle outside world but that's really not the case cause I don't get affected by anyone it's just these close family ones. My mum doesn't get get me like I never get jealous of people over their relationship but their family bond mother daughter goals like my eyes tear up seeing that cause how I wish I had that bond with my mum. It's like if we behave with other normally no arguments and all it feels like surreal”