“I feel too much ryt now...I just don't know..I feel like everyone hates me..like I feel so bad n my ex cheated on me when I was 14..though ik it was teenage love..I still loved him genuinely..but he literally cheated on me wearing school uniform..hw can I even trust someone again..??
I am no longer interested...tbh I am scared wt if the same thing happens n also I have very big ambitious n I don't want to loose track or waste my time n any other persons time too
I don't speak to guys much..n I don't know yyy..like I feel like I will get all my traumas back like in my school people told me I was overacting..I have attitude just bcoz I looked good n many boys were behind me..like I was a new student that time n also I just entered my teenage n felt so bad....n my parents I am the only child they were so strict that time like they thought I was dng something wrong n that I was a topper n when my grades dropped a bit in 8th mu dad who loved me more than anyone n was the person I loved the most told me that he wanted a boy child n that he wouldn't even care if I fail as I was anyways gonna get married n leave..that just made me feel sook bad...it just brokeee me completely..that I stopped believing everyone..n also I have traumas from friendships too like many people betrayed me they back botched avt me used me n also I feel like I am not perfect n that my existence does ntg good...sometimes I feel like regret my own existence...!!”
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Someone answered with kindness...
All that must really hurt, ur ex , ur dad and especially when all this hits u at once.But then look at it , u survived it.You survived it and still kept your sense of feeling alive.But here's the importance thing, u don't need to be the most perfect thing to be loved ,to feel validated.You are you , whether in your highs or your lows. Be your own hype person.You don't need to be loved by someone else, be your own lover.Cuz there's no one who can love yourself more than u.The world is selfish and everyone loves themselves first. So do yourself a favour and be like the world. Love yourself unconditionally, like how you wanted to be loved.Give yourself the love you crave 💕