I feel so ugly. Everytime somebody is looking at me i feel like they are seeing through my face and thinking about how ugly i look. I have stopped clicking pictures from a very long time now. Very rare i’d say. And i have this very weird feeling of losing my closed ones i have a v small circle i feel like i will lose them because of my behaviour or i have a feeling that something bad will happen to them, my mom & dad super scared of their aging and my cat and my bf and bestfriend. I just feel like i am a bad person and have only hurt everybody through my actions i am rude, miserable angry. I am a terrible human being in the end. I love them and i shout at them, give them a bad day. I have hurt my bf so much so much (i never cheated pr anything i have always loved him with my whole heart) i havr done everything that i could for him but i have given him the worst days bad days rven when he was already having a bad day. Also i dont know why i feel like even though i love my parents a lot and care about them i am so much more sweeter nicer towards my bf than my parents. Theres lot more i just wanna disappear

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Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

you sound like you might have ocd, and trust me, no ones thinking about how ugly you are, i think exactly the same, when i talk to someone im always focused on how i look, i dont even think abou thow the other person looks, i only focus on how they act and their humor, and for the rare ppl who only care about what you look like, they arent your people to begin with, and we have to accept that. Because no one is "ugly", if we take care of ourselves, dress however our style is, are passionate about things, are just being ourselves, thats so attractive, and ik its easier said than done, i wish i could take my own advice, but you need to find yourself beautiful before wanting others to, because some people will ALWAYS find you pretty and some people will ALWAYS find you ugly. So many guys and girls call my fav celebrities ugly when theyre the prettiest, its just that everyone has their own views and thats okay, its not their fault either. but, you choose who to keep in your life, if you go with whoever calls you ugly and fix yourself, someone else will call you ugly, theres no end to it. So, at the end of the day, do what you can, work out, take care of your body and needs, and leave the rest to the world. Also, youre not a bad person, bad people NEVER feel guilty about being bad, they enjoy it, youre just a person making many mistakes, like literally everyone else in this world, its normal, keep trying and dont lose hope, no matter what happens, the world wont end, even if it feels like it will in the moment. You should really watch motivational videos on youtube, they really help, and start journalling to gather your thoughts. I know we dont know eachother but im sending u love, you arent alone, we'll get through this. Take care, you're loved. And you can reply and talk if you ever need, ill be here.