“I feel so heavy thses days.. l had got person 4 weeks back .. we lil stayed close for 3 weeks .. on the 1st day itself we shared alot and yk it never felt like speaking to a stranger ... it felt like speaking to someone who I knew for years ... he said the same tho.. we didnt know what we were actually ... we kept talking... he was stuck with his ex.. I was stuck with my past ... I thought we both healed each other.... but I got healed... he didn't...we spoke alot day and night convos.. the first morning text will be him and I'll end the day with him.. used to share all the tiny details that happened in that day... he used to do that too... we laughed alot... he use to rage bait me.. we really hated if we find a distance btwn us... suddenly one day... he told he needs a break to prep for his exam... for a month...and to heal from his past... I told him to take.. I thought his absence wouldn't bother me much... but it did alot ... 3 days past... I called him on the fourth day complained him about his absence... I felt like I wanna end everything... I texted him at that night after that call.. the next morning we spoke again... he said if you feel like its hurting you please do end it... I don't wanna hurt you... he doesnt want Me to keep expectations that he'll come back after that exam... how can I not ?... (I can't name it as love because.. it doesnt seem like that... but something really worth the talk...).. I kept complaining I never understood his pain.. bevuz mine felt so much bad at that time .. his voice broke in the call I felt like he was crying... I tolf him I really wanna punish myself for doing this to me ... nd its not your fault...
Nd that night I again texted him I apologized to him for speaking to him like that.. I told him to take his time and reach me out... and he said okay... and he even said "evenafter all that hurt I did to you ... you reached me being caring to me.. no one can be you"
Do you think will he come back...? I wish he should... and we get back to the old routine of us... Yk its cant bear this pain... it hurts me alot mentally and my chest physically hurts.... I cant take this prblm to him ... he's already going through alot... but it hurts me more... I dont know how im gonna fix myself... do you think this nov Dec brings him back to me and takes us back to our old routine ?”
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Someone answered with kindness...Thanked by the asker
"You shouldn't be so emotionally attached to someone that you're physically or mentally hurting yourself over them, especially when there was never any commitment in the first place.
The best thing you can do is move on. Don't wait for him. Don't put your life on hold hoping he'll come back.
You need to reach a point where you're genuinely okay with both possibilities: if he comes back, fine. If he doesn't, that's fine too.
Stop convincing yourself that you need him, or someone like him, to talk to, share your problems with, or feel complete. You are capable of handling things on your own.
Learn to be comfortable with your own company. Build your independence. Don't make another person the centre of your existence.
You can miss someone and still choose yourself. You can care about someone and still move on.
Be independent, girl. Go live your life."