I feel like life has become incredibly heavy lately. There are so many things happening at once, and I don’t know how to process everything anymore.

I’ve been dealing with situations that are beyond my control, watching someone I love go through difficult times, constantly worrying about what tomorrow will bring, and trying to remain strong for everyone around me.

I feel like I’ve had to become strong even on days when I desperately wanted someone to tell me that everything would be okay. I keep praying, hoping, waiting and trying to trust the process, but sometimes the uncertainty becomes unbearable.

I also find myself questioning why certain things happen, whether I’m being tested, and when life will finally feel a little lighter.

How do I learn to surrender without feeling like I’m giving up? How do I stop living in constant fear of what might happen next? And most importantly, how do I find peace when the circumstances around me are still far from peaceful?

I just want to feel that life is on my side again.

Question

I feel like life has become incredibly heavy lately. There are so many things happening at once, and I don’t know how to process everything anymore.

I’ve been dealing with situations that are beyond my control, watching someone I love go through difficult times, constantly worrying about what tomorrow will bring, and trying to remain strong for everyone around me.

I feel like I’ve had to become strong even on days when I desperately wanted someone to tell me that everything would be okay. I keep praying, hoping, waiting and trying to trust the process, but sometimes the uncertainty becomes unbearable.

I also find myself questioning why certain things happen, whether I’m being tested, and when life will finally feel a little lighter.

How do I learn to surrender without feeling like I’m giving up? How do I stop living in constant fear of what might happen next? And most importantly, how do I find peace when the circumstances around me are still far from peaceful?

I just want to feel that life is on my side again.

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

Hey! Firstly I am so sorry that you are going through this. Secondly, i want to say that you aren't alone. I was in your exact position couple months ago. I can understand the pain and the constant fear of uncertainty is the worst to deal with. One thing that helped me was, I wrote down all the things that was running in my mind. Later sorted out the things that I can control and things I don't have in my control. Writing down helps your brain to slow down and you will actually feel a lot calmer when you try to let go of things that aren't in your control. Give yourself sometime and do something that you really enjoy like cooking, painting, if nothing, blast music on high volume and dance like crazy. It helps you forget everything for a while and live in the present.
Think about all the other people who couldn't experience or who are in a much worse situation than you are in right now. You are doing great in life. You have come this far and this is not the end. Theres so much life looking forward for you to experience. 
Take one step at a time. It's easier said than done. I don't know who you are and you don't know who I am but I still care about you because I can sense you have great potential and that you are a great human being!