“I feel like I'm the only one who's been left behind while everyone else is moving forward.
People my age are enjoying their lives, going on trips, getting new phones, achieving success, and finding love. Meanwhile, I'm on the other side, feeling stuck.
I'm not jealous of their lives, but the life they're living is the life I've always dreamed of.
I've tried not to isolate myself, but there's no one I can really share my feelings with. People tell me, "Go outside, get some fresh air, take a walk, or keep yourself busy. Don't overthink."
But I've tried all of those things, and none of them seems to work.
I'm so afraid of stepping out of my comfort zone. I feel like whenever I need someone the most, nobody is there for me. But whenever someone else needs me, I'm always there for them.
I've tried to love, but it never seems to work out. Every time I try to love someone, they end up treating me like an option. Nobody from my past has ever truly chosen me or loved me the way I wanted to be loved.
I've tried learning new things, but nothing seems to last. I've tried going outside, too, but being around people drains my energy. All I want to do is come home, lie in my bed, and shut everything out.
I don't know what's happening to me anymore.
All I want to do is nothing. Absolutely nothing.
What am I supposed to do?”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Do nothing. The answer you have been looking for is in you, "doing nothing" it's not a wrong thing. Your soul is tired of this world so it's asking you to give some time to rest. Just do the things you love, if you don't want to do anything then don't do anything just exist. That's more than enough. Take rest don't force yourself to do something. Everyone has their own time to shine, wait for yours. It may take days, months, or years but eventually your time will come. Until then just exist.