“I feel, i dunno, lost? Off kilter and out of it? It feels like nothing will be the same after messing up and I can't get out of my head about it. I've tried treating myself like someone else who's made the same mistake and It isn't working. I'm not sure what to do and I could use some guidance..”

Another soul answered...

Maybe I can't help..but Christopher Bang Chan can help you. Or..go and listen Stray kKids, especially "In My Head". At least try it

Another soul answered...

Hope this helps, dear fellow human : I don't know what it is that you say you messed up but as someone who has messed up in their life -just like every single other person- I can tell you we're here to mess up. What really matters is what you do after it. It's not the mistake or the loss but what we do after it is what defines us. What is one thing that you could have done differently for things to go better (or have gone better) ? Focus on what you can change now, if you see the hope in the change that you can create for yourself it might be easier to forgive yourself. Also, I really think this is a place where a professional like a psychotherapist could come in handy and please remember that help is available, even when it's in the middle of the night there are national prevention hotlines that operate if ever you're having dark thoughts.

Another soul answered...

Ask the King of the universe for forgiveness. Then flush the old. Reload the new. Keep trying, forgive urself

Another soul answered...

Professional help will definetaly help. You just need the right kind, also, having someone to support you is a great help.