“I feel behind from everyone I just don't know what to do my mother passed away a year ago and I am alone now I see people who ruined my life having a best life and I look at mine and wonder what possibly I did wrong to deserve that I am only 17 and I am always in my room yes I have one genuine friend and I think she hates me even though she is actually my everything I met her last year when I started university and I don't know how to be a friend I see girls going out taking pictures and eating out with their friends and I look at my life I've never done that honestly it would've been possible if I was not a shy introverted depressed person I feel so left out even when I am not I get scared easily especially after my mother passed away I am afraid to even get close to someone
I feel ugly and unattractive even though I doesn't really bother me that someone should like me or have a crush on me but all my friends are popular they are sooo pretty and attractive people like them easily complimenting starts the moment we walk and I am just there standing no one has even complimented me let alone even like me and If I like someone I look at my grades my life my looks I stop developing feelings because I think it's pointless for a loser like me to even love someone I act as someone who doesn't care but deep down I wish to be pretty and attractive smart and confident I think I will never be happy in my life and I don't deserve to be happy”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Sorry About Your Mother , Firstly lemme Tell you that your not alone feeling this way , idk if it was a Co-incident or Some kind of a Miracle , My Life is Exactly The Same As The Way You pointed out , Im in the Same Age Group - Same Phase , i know its Hard , But Being Resiliant is the Only Option we have to be honest , Its Really hard to Trust People For someone Like Us , because when we do We put in somuch Trust adn Effort and that person Breaks It , They might not realise it but , we being like the way we are it kills us from inside , we can never trust another person even though when we actually Need Someone , But i feel like its a Phase , Even im Trying to Overcomne , Im Trying to Fix myself , The Least We can Is Try Right ?, So All i would Suggest is even though i myself am not out of this phase , is that focus on the present , its okay if your alone , You Will Find Your Right People , The moment You do All the Pile up Will Melt Down like it never Happened , The Hardest part is Finding that right Person , I Just Wish i find someone who i can Talk to Openly without them being judgemental , like Actually not pretending ,So That We both Can Share our Sorrows And Support Each Other in our Hard Times , Because that one support from one Trusted Individual Will Create Wonders in our life, I just Typed the heck out whatever i felt from the bottom of my Heart , Please Take Care , Everything will Fall in Place :)