“I don't really know how to explain everything to someone anymore. I've done my fair share of explaining,to friends, doctors parents. But at some point you just stop. Because it feels like the only time they actually genuinely care is when it makes them uncomfortable, like when I'm a bigger to their life. Idk.
I've thought about ending it too many times. Can't tell anyone about that because that is a huge burden. I don't have the courage to tho. I do want to live. Just not like this. I feel like I'm too flawed. In the way a psychopath may be. This is who I am and I don't think I can change.
I loved someone and a few months after breaking up with them I dated two other people before getting back with them again and then breaking up again. Then I realised I liked my best friend and he did too but was too scared to get into a relationship. Now I like someone else.im so fucking desperate. I loved ve my parents but I hate them too. I'm a fucking loser who can't do shit. I'm so so bad at the course I chose and idk how I'll make money.”
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this feels so bad, but as someone going through a break up right now and actually leaving other people and like attention and I have no friends too. I feel it where you’re coming from and it’s just that I would say change your life like change the way you live it. Maybe you should go ask other people and maybe you should just make new people, your friends and maybe you should just go and do different things and just change the way you live your life because this is surely not making you happy, so if it’s not making you happy, then change the way and I am too young, and I don’t know what else to save it. I would say do what makes you happy, and if there’s nothing you can find that will make you happy, then just try out new things and will surely find one.