I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel lonely even when I'm surrounded by people. When I'm around others, I feel happy without even realizing it, but when I'm alone, I feel this strange emptiness that I can't really explain. And the thing is, I genuinely love being alone.

I'm constantly doomscrolling and doing absolutely nothing. I've tried so many times to stop and get back into my hobbies, but somehow I always end up scrolling again. I feel like I'm getting uglier day by day, I'm not studying, and I'm not doing the things I'm supposed to do. I'm just a broke teenager living in what feels like the most boring place ever.
I have big dreams and goals I really really want to achieve but ..... My laziness or idk what it's,it is eating me alive

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I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel lonely even when I'm surrounded by people. When I'm around others, I feel happy without even realizing it, but when I'm alone, I feel this strange emptiness that I can't really explain. And the thing is, I genuinely love being alone.

I'm constantly doomscrolling and doing absolutely nothing. I've tried so many times to stop and get back into my hobbies, but somehow I always end up scrolling again. I feel like I'm getting uglier day by day, I'm not studying, and I'm not doing the things I'm supposed to do. I'm just a broke teenager living in what feels like the most boring place ever.
I have big dreams and goals I really really want to achieve but ..... My laziness or idk what it's,it is eating me alive

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

i am in the same position as you are so i can feel what you are feeling .

first of all There is nothing wrong with you. You are probably a listener in the group that is why you feel like you are lonely and no one gets you and your words are of no value. You probably overthink alot when you are alone so you feel happy when you are not thinking, which is when you are around people so you start feeling happy.

Love to be alone but feeling emptiness is one of the worse when all you do is scroll. I think you should limit the use of phone try slowly, try deactivating your account, instead try to journal. If you do not have the motivation to journal as well, try to type it in the note app in mobile that works as well but writing is even better since it increases your focus more during the time u deactive your account and not use phone, try to read books, not school related ofc lol, try reading different genres books and find which u like, i am sure it will be as addictive as  scroll. you just need to start tho or else u will be stuck with the scrolling.

i belive u like music, try to go for a walk outside with your earphones on, that way you will be alone and not feel empty, try listening to cheerful songs not sad.
 try to drink more water it helps your skin become better. try taking baths even if you dont want to, you may think you are ugly but it's just the habits that is making u think that way.

we still got big dreams to achieve, if we do not achieve our dreams due to this fking laziness we will regret it all our life. a little step at a time will bring us a bright future so let's give it a try and get out of this situation. the sooner we get away from this laziness the faster we get to our dreams. hope this helps