“I broke up with my ex 10 months ago he was very toxic and controlling and also abusive he had abused me verbally in front of his friends even his friends had make fun of me in front of him but he never noticed he never bought flowers for me no chocolates or small efforts that can make a girl happy even when we met he paid the bill at that time but used to ask for the money after even a small fight one day I went to a cafe with him and I thought I should buy some snacks for him and when he arrived at the cafe he ordered some french fries and after we finished the French fries I told him abt the snacks only for him to eat some snacks and throw the remaining snacks in the dustbin right in front of me another day we decided to met and one day before he told me that he would buy me a top so I decided I should also buy something for him so I bought a tshirt for him with all the savings that I had (although it was not that expensive) and guess what, he said that this is not the type of clothes that I wear i don't buy cheap clothes and the top that he had gifted me that day was only ₹135 on meesho and the tshirt i bought for him was expensive than the top btw and after a few months we got into a fight he told me to give back the top that he gifted me and give all the money he had spent on me (less than 1000 rs btw) he was really very toxic but the thing is sometimes my mind starts missing him i don't know why?? Not even a single day that he had make me truly happy he used to hurt me like everyday and also after the fight he used to send me photos of random girls saying i don't want you I'm talking to this girl and after I started crying and make a 100 missed calls to him he would pick my call and after hearing me crying and saying sorry to him for talking to my parents or friends (yes these were also some of the reasons for the fight that why are you talking to your female friends when you have me) and then he used to say that I was lying to you abt the girl she was just my friend's gf”
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Uhmm...so sorry that you have to face these problems while being in a relationship. Honestly, i think he was not a good match for you. If you love someone you can't just abuse them, you can't make them cry. You said you missed him even though he was toxic, that's cuz love doesn't have to be perfect. The good memories you guys made, the bond you guys shared, that's making you hard to just forget him. It doesn't mean you're wek or something like that. I don't know what to say i am getting out of words.... :(
Take care of yourself stranger. You will get past him, give time to yourself. I know 10 months is a long time but i believe in you. I know you're strong than you think.