i am very behind in life, I have 14 backlogs and idk how to get out of this message i have created myself, I have no hope left that I'd complete this degree im just hanging here for the sake of my parents. i dint really know what to do, i asked my parents last year itself that i want to dropout but they said no, now there's only two options, either I have to somehow complete this degree or just keep in adding my backlogs and go home after 4th year, i feel very terrible I know I have so much potential but I just can't bring myself to work hard and study and clear the papers, i feel very guilty my parents are spending so much money on my studies but I'm not living upto it. i just want to just disappear somewhere and don't want to feel all this or better if I just die

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Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

first, breathe. who decided a timeline to which one is early or late. second if you truly want honesty, its that you have to do it. like it or not, tired or not. ik its very hard, im there too, but you see time will pass either way. whether you do it or you dont, you will be graduating. its on you to decide how you want that time to pass
lets go at a slower pace, remember its your own personal timeline, no one is rushing you, nothing will end if you dont finish at the same time as others. 
one backlog at a time, one paper in a day. you dont have to plan an entire future. one day at a time. heck you dont even know whats the future is like, why worry. let it unfold, dont pre decide and keep expectations that can disappoint. plan, yes, but around yourself not as a burden to do list, but a wishlist.
life is a suspense, and suspense? its always beautiful and thrilling. find the adernaline in that and just move. remember if you must compare - people dumber than you have done it before. you will too.