“I am struggling to slow down and work, and to find challenges in my personal life that motivate me.”

Another soul answered...

I get it, do you maybe have ADHD? Just look for little things, you can do while you're at work. Are Fidget toys an option

Another soul answered...

just start doomscrolling. be happy

Another soul answered...

You condradict yourself. You cannot slow down but you cannot drive yourself forward. If I understood you correctly, you feel anxious and buzzy about your future, perhaps. You must stop for some time. Do nothing. Walk where you haven't been at your neighborhood. Watch sky and sun. To be able to continue and motivate yourself, you first must learn what it means to stop. Your challenge is you for yourself. I believe in you.