“i am so scared of marriages and that's one of the reason i have never been in to relationship like i don't talk with men just because i am scared of them its not like i am scared because of how they look or they are very ruff and tuff or they are strong but because i think that they are not trustworthy and i don't want to hurt myself, but there was a guy in our university i liked him in start but i never told any friend of mine because friends make any situation hundred times worst, in start i was like okay he is handsome he is good this and that after after some time i started searching him and also i don't know but he started coming infront of me all the time but i started avoiding him as i said i am afraid of these attachments this affection increased now and one day when i sat alone and started thinking of him i started crying like i don't want this i know this is not going to work out, this and that and i prayed a lot that i wish i see him with a girl so that i just stop looking at him and when i went to uni the next day i saw him with a girl ohhhh it was a moment i knew that i should just stay away from these things but after some days i thought maybe he was just talking to her class fellow or something i prayed again and the next day i went to uni he was sitting with that girl alone and i just stopped myself huh............its just weird feeling but i can't stop thinking about him after all this now i try to stop searching for him everywhere, when he comes infront of me i look away but still he is in my head all the time what should i doooooooooo its kinda embarrassing tho.....”
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I used to be able relate to alot of this. Although I'm not in the same boat anymore, the best way to start socializing with men is by asking them for small but random favors . When your friends are talking to them, just ask or speak a few things, slowly you'll start being able to talk to them casually, then you'll be able to become good friends with them, and if you're able to remain as friends with men, you can definitely marry a man through genuine interest and connection. I'm not saying you should date your guy friend but I'm saying that you should maintain a connection. As for this guy, it seems youre obsessed with him and that's only because you have a lack of information about him, make a list of icks and mark which all icks he checks out, trust me you'll do better. Sometimes becoming friends with your crush is more than enough for those feelings to disappear