“i am done with this life,from past 3-4years there is such a downfall ,i have completely lost who i was ,for me everything is fine the acedemic downfall,the insults,reminding of being a failure,those are thing i can overcome ,but throughtout this to make things terriblely worse i have had no one in my life that i can be vunerable with and share my thoughts,its not that i am introvert and shy ,i just dont have the pool of people of my age ,and familarity make easy conversation,i have never had an oppurtunity,and the most hurtful thing is my family,the first person who we can generally trust is quite opposite to me ,there are many issues ,my brother hates me for some resons,my mother is metally.physically ill and has lot on her plate but she is so verbal with even the smallest things which makes things easy for her,whereas for me i need to seem fine ,even though i am crying on inside,i can never losen up my guard ,so this creates a loop ,people think i am fine as i am very good at pretending ,then which makes the hurt inside more hidden and so on,and i have specific reson for not being verbal with my emotions,as i dont think anybody cares of me or my life,this is also hurtful being invisible,i am sure many guys will relate,this is fact i have come to be soo true , a man value is only on what he achieved and earns,whatever extra pain and emotion he has only gets listens and consoled too when he is rich and powerful,and i am really desparate to talk to anyone if intrested just dm me on insta my id akhil_toich_grass”