I am becoming a bad version of myself. Not like I hate myself but I want to fix some things like it's not my personality. The arrogance, thin patience, anger, loudness, revenge and jealousy cuz I couldn't take revenge. I want to fix this.. I am a kind soul. That's definitely not me. Not my personality.

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Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

Don't worry, you are not alone to think this way. People often act in such way to protect themselves, to keep themselves safe but at some point, you will realise that it is not truly who you are just like you mentioned. I am proud of you for understanding it and deciding to take action, you indeed are a kind soul, you should never let go of your true nature. Let go of the things that hurt you, forgive them, because you shouldn't be wasting time on things or people that make you become such person. Don't forget to forgive yourself too yk, and remember healing takes time and so does changing, you can't suddenly become a brand new person overnight, give yourself some time. Do the things you used enjoy such as reading or sketching maybe, or you can try out a new hobby. Do some physical activities like yoga or try out a new sport, meditation might help too. 
Even tho I wasn't much of a help, I hope I managed to do something. Finally, good luck on your journey of becoming a better version of yourself, you've already taken a great step by reflecting on yourself! Cherish your kind shoul!