I am an 18 year old , an average student of school and just got into b tech cse in my hometown udaipur , i really feel i have no one to talk , or to take guidance or to share things i want to share with that one person , not that i am in find of that person , i just want to build myself and fulfill my own dreams , i want to be a content creater side by side , i also started a page of fitness , but i lost consistency in it in 20 days only , i got insecurity about my face , i got a lot of acne which i am dealing with , which lowered a lot of my confidence , i dont have a good mobile from which i can record , but these are just excuses i know that , but i will not give up on the page i made , i will stick to it , i will rise again on that , another scene i face is that i really really hate to go to my college , because there is barely anyone which has my type of mindset or thinking , in the class of 70 students i sit alone by choice , i barely have 2 3 friends in college which are also of different sections , i tried to change my section but i got rejected , also the academics feels heavy a lot , from the last week i am not going to the college , i really also feel to make something from my mind or learn something from which i can start earning money and dont disturb my parents ever again , and even pay the college fees by myself , i have a goal of collecting money from now on and buy an iphone for my content creation till the next of year , and in that i also have to grow my insta page as well as my academics , as well as my gym , i have to keep everything in balance , i thought i am making things complicated , but the only way to deal with them is by working on them no matter what , i have to keep showing up . still i feel preety confused makin my decisions everyday and everytime , i also feel am i really doing the right thing in studying b tech in cse , should i stick to it or do something else but the ( something else also feels the wrong thing ) i really want to do content creation , but my parents are never going to be in support of it , well leave it , i dont know what i said , i just felt to type whatever was going in my head

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I am an 18 year old , an average student of school and just got into b tech cse in my hometown udaipur , i really feel i have no one to talk , or to take guidance or to share things i want to share with that one person , not that i am in find of that person , i just want to build myself and fulfill my own dreams , i want to be a content creater side by side , i also started a page of fitness , but i lost consistency in it in 20 days only , i got insecurity about my face , i got a lot of acne which i am dealing with , which lowered a lot of my confidence , i dont have a good mobile from which i can record , but these are just excuses i know that , but i will not give up on the page i made , i will stick to it , i will rise again on that , another scene i face is that i really really hate to go to my college , because there is barely anyone which has my type of mindset or thinking , in the class of 70 students i sit alone by choice , i barely have 2 3 friends in college which are also of  different sections , i tried to change my section but i got rejected , also the academics feels heavy a lot , from the last week i am not going to the college , i really also feel to make something from my mind or learn something from which i can start earning money and dont disturb my parents ever again , and even pay the college fees by myself , i have a goal of collecting money from now on and buy an iphone for my content creation till the next of year , and in that i also have to grow  my insta page as well as my academics , as well as my gym , i have to keep everything in balance , i thought i am making things complicated , but the only way to deal with them is by working on them no matter what , i have to keep showing up . still i feel preety confused makin my decisions everyday and everytime , i also feel am i really doing the right thing in studying b tech in cse , should i stick to it or do something else but the ( something else also feels the wrong thing ) i really want to do content creation ,  but my parents are never going to be in support of it , well leave it , i dont know what i said , i just felt to type whatever was going in my head

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

bhai sab thik h ..jo tere paas abhi h , you deserved tht only , accept it 
but future me kya hoga , it depends on your work,skills 
bndo k saath to dosti krni hi pdegi agar 4 saal bitaane h ,bs try to find better ones .
content crestion humesha side hustle hi rkhna ,jbtk financially koi stable job nahi lgg jaati . isilye pahle to yaar acchi %, skills pe kaam bhi krle
baaki yaar iphone lena bhi thik rahega ki nahi ,im doubtful ,ik camera quality, content creation k liye gajab h ,un paiso ko bcha skta  h ,ya invest kr skta h kuch portion ,..baaki to kya h agar side hustle se bhi earning ho jae fir to jo cahhe wo lelena