“I am a highschooler. I feel lonely most of the time, although at times I feel like I'm surrounded by many people, when things go bad, I've no one to reach out to. Every close friendship I've made ends up in betrayal. I try to convince myself sometimes to accept the fact that I'm alone, but there are times I do wish I had someone to share my joys and sorrows with. All I've had are imaginary friends, imaginary parents. I feel like I'm so parasocial and crazy in the head with this weird way to cope. I don't deserve to complain about my life when people are growing through worse, yet I've the audacity to end my life. I don't deserve any help, well that's what I'd like to say but I am a selfish and greedy creature. I'm so scared of growing up knowing this was all the childhood I had, just blurred memories and betrayals. Should I really accept the fact that there will be no one and I've to navigate it all alone? This question is ironical considering where I'm talking from.”

Another soul answered...

Noooooooooooooooooooooooo Don't accept Don't accept trash friends, people who make you feel lonely. Not all friendships are bad. Not all end in betrayal. You will find your people. Your in highschool. Shit ain't the best place to make close friends. Imma be honest I had friends but none of the lasted. Accepted one ig I'm in college now got new people. Lovely people for the most Ofc not all of them that great even I still make mistakes and make bad friends. Cause we all can't tell how someone's personality is based on looks alone. But then again gng seee, you need to socialize. Maybe not in high school, but get the hell away from ur home town and start new. Start fresh And please please socialize, it gets less scary trust me. Talk to a new person every day or something. Just for exposure uk. You don't have to call urself greedy or selfish for wanting human company. IT'S HUMAN OKAY. I want company and there is no way in hell I'll apologise for it. There's beauty in life when there are people filling into it. Also think u need a bit of therapy sure it will help. Also don't think retarded shi like ending ur life. U got so much to live. Ur a kid dude. Think we all were at a point where we wanted to kill ourselves. But we get through those times twin. You will do it too I'm sure can tell by the sound of u🙂‍↕️. Also dude everyone else going through shi doesn't make urs any less. It allowed to complain. Ur a kid. Anyone who tells u , that u shouldn't should shut the hell up

Another soul answered...

Often problems are small but we maginfy it just by our thoughts because of which it seems too big. I hope you understand