“I am 17 year old,I have absolutely no idea what is going on in my life.There is something always going in the background of my mind screaming that I dont belong anywhere,not with my family,not with my friend,It always feels like I dont belong here,and..lately I started to realize that people in my life are not actual I thought who they were,after my mom passed away in my 7th grade,the grief didn't hit me soon,It took a lotta time for me to realise that I actually lost a person who is very important in a person's life,It is not that I miss her because I have never lived with her,I barely remember how it feels to be scolded by her or talking to her,holding her hand, she was halfparalysed,she had 4 brain surgeries,her life was in hospital totally,my dad also ofc took care of care which changed everything,I never felt anything like home,never celebrated anything,I always felt guilty when I wanted to buy something that I can't afford,I never had a childhood,even if I try to remember my childhood all I remember is the sympathy that people gave me,the days where I stood alone figuring out while others are getting helped by their moms,i never had joy of picking an outfits with my mom or do makeup like everyone did.I became a quiet kid lately,It is not that I hate talking,I love to talk but I am not used to it,might be because of my school,how my school shaped me,I have very few friends and ofcourse I have zero guy friends,I never ever talked to any guy in my life till now.
I am very insecure about my body,from the childhood,when people complement me or call me pretty I feel like thats not what I am,because I dont know wt I am saying bruhhhh,well yeah wtever.I dont even know what to ask actly.Can this get better?if so?how?”
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Yes, it can get better. You have to start enjoy everything, I know it's not easy. Start making few friends but make the real one. The soul inside you is void right now. You can try to go out and vent everything that you have in your mind. Also, try to write everything that is bothering you on a paper.. and burn it afterwards. It'll help you.. Work on your conversation skills, start approaching people whom you want to talk, it'll be awkward and hard for couple of days but it'll be alright after sometime. Sending warm hugs🩷