i am 15 and it might seem like huh what problems can she possibly face at such a young age and to be honest i sometimes feel like i make a big deal out of my problems but they still bother me a lot
im in 11th grade right now and more than half of 11th grade has passed and i am not taking my studies seriously at all I jus cant, i myself chose pcb in 10th grade for me because i thought i cud do it but i was wrong. My parents both had pcb in 11th so they knwe what it wud do to me but i still myself chose not to listen to them and now i regret it so so much. I can not stand it. I jus dont understand a single thing and I don't want to be a doctor anymore and my parents are so supportive i feel like a huge disappointment like why am i doing this to them i am on my laptop all day long pretending like i am studying when im really just scrolling instagrama nd im not at all proud of myself but i really dont know what to do and i tried to talk to them but they still think that i am trying for neet when infact i have given up i will still try a lil and gove neet but ultimately i dont know what to do because i am 100% i am never getting into a govt medical college and i dont even want to. I dont know what to dow ith my life now.

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i am 15 and it might seem like huh what problems can she possibly face at such a young age and to be honest i sometimes feel like i make a big deal out of my problems but they still bother me a lot 
im in 11th grade right now and more than half of 11th grade has passed and i am not taking my studies seriously at all I jus cant, i myself chose pcb in 10th grade for me because i thought i cud do it but i was wrong. My parents both had pcb in 11th so they knwe what it wud do to me but i still myself chose not to listen to them and now i regret it so so much. I can not stand it. I jus dont understand a single thing and I don't want to be a doctor anymore and my parents are so supportive i feel like a huge disappointment like why am i doing this to them i am on my laptop all day long pretending like i am studying when im really just scrolling instagrama nd im not at all proud of myself but i really dont know what to do and i tried to talk to them but they still think that i am trying for neet when infact i have given up i will still try a lil and gove neet but ultimately i dont know what to do because i am 100% i am never getting into a govt medical college and i dont even want to. I  dont know what to dow ith my life now.

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

Hey. 1st of all age doesn't matter. Every age we face a problem that's hard at that point of time and you don't have to give a disclaimer like that. I can totally totally relate to what u r saying. And you have figured out and worded your issue so well. Good job. Now, idk if I can give solutions, but I can try a little. 
Being confused and not knowing what to do in life is a very common crisis that we all face regardless of age. And who's even in a profession which is exactly what they studied for? So don't worry much about the subjects or anything. One thing that's really important is experience and exposure. If u r not sure on what to do, go on internships. Like not formal. Just going to different fields and understanding how the job actually is and whether you like it or not. 
Or even ask ppl abt their jobs. The key is questions and exposure and the courage to start again and be a beginner. Hope this helps ❤️