How do i move forward with life. Like i feel that i have been stuck in the same place, inside a same person for the past 4 years. I want to change, i really do...but at the same time, i say fuck it to anything..

For example,if i want to do something, i push myself out of my comfort zone to do the task i want...like joining the dramatics club in my college, i will push myself, practice to join it. And i actually did want to join it but if i get selected, i'll suddenly lose all my interest for it, like it didn't even mattered..but i know i wanted it..then why this feeling of fuck it?

this thing is slowly affecting my life as well...i have no interest in anything..games, studies, friends, etc. not even in myself...i just lay down on my bed all day, only doing what is a must to do..like passing exams, eating, etc.
the things i used to have interest in like games, drawing dont even come to mind anymore.

i love to have people to talk to or be friends with but when it actually comes to talking to people, i seem genuinely disinterested...like i just don't even want to do it anymore

small tasks are now feeling like some kind of big thing to me..changing my pillow covers shouldn't require more than 5 mins..but here i am, sitting from over an hour thinking and stressing about PILLOW COVERS..

I actually haven't changed it for over a month now, and god knows how long i've been stressing to do so. I haven't done a lot of things for over a month now

In simple words, i don't feel like a person anymore.. i dont have a personality, hobbies, likes, dislikes or anything..sure i still hate some vegetables..but apart from that i feel nothing..only constant stress and looming all the time.

Anyone has any good advice for this?””

Question

How do i move forward with life. Like i feel that i have been stuck in the same place, inside a same person for the past 4 years. I want to change, i really do...but at the same time, i say fuck it to anything..

For example,if i want to do something, i push myself out of my comfort zone to do the task i want...like joining the dramatics club in my college, i will push myself, practice to join it. And i actually did want to join it but if i get selected, i'll suddenly lose all my interest for it, like it didn't even mattered..but i know i wanted it..then why this feeling of fuck it?

this thing is slowly affecting my life as well...i have no interest in anything..games, studies, friends, etc. not even in myself...i just lay down on my bed all day, only doing what is a must to do..like passing exams, eating, etc.
the things i used to have interest in like games, drawing dont even come to mind anymore.

i love to have people to talk to or be friends with but when it actually comes to talking to people, i seem genuinely disinterested...like i just don't even want to do it anymore

small tasks are now feeling like some kind of big thing to me..changing my pillow covers shouldn't require more than 5 mins..but here i am, sitting from over an hour thinking and stressing about PILLOW COVERS..

I actually haven't changed it for over a month now, and god knows how long i've been stressing to do so. I haven't done a lot of things for over a month now

In simple words, i don't feel like a person anymore.. i dont have a personality, hobbies, likes, dislikes or anything..sure i still hate some vegetables..but apart from that i feel nothing..only constant stress and looming all the time.

Anyone has any good advice for this?””

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

advice? i don't know, but i feel you. that's me. there is nothing i look forward to, i hope we make out of it well.

I think what I have been doing is exhausting myself everyday so that I fall asleep immediately and so the thoughtless thoughts and self doubt doesn't consume me. i do vaguely exhausting things, wake up earlier than I usually don't and go swimming and push myself so hard that i fall asleep. im not sure how healthy it is though. sleep solves everything.