How do i move forward with life. Like i feel that i have been stuck in the same place, inside a same person for the past 4 years. I want to change, i really do...but at the same time, i say fuck it to anything..

For example, i push myself out of my comfort zone to do any task i want...like joining the dramatics club in my college, i will push myself, practice to join it. And i actually did want to join it but if i get selected, i'll suddenly lose all my interest for it, like it didn't even mattered..but i know i wanted it..

this thing is slowly affecting my life as well...i have no interest in anything..games, studies, friends, etc. not even in myself...i just lay down on my bd all day, only doing what is a must to do..like passing exams, eating, etc.
the things i used to have interest in like games, drawing dont even come to mind anymore

small tasks are now feeling like some kind of big thing to me..changing pillow covers shouldn't require more than 5 mins..but here i am, sitting from over an hour thinking and stressing about PILLOW COVERS..

I actually haven't changed it for over a month now, and god knows how long i've been stressing to do so.

In simple words, i don't feel like a person anymore.. i dont have a personality, hobbies, likes, dislikes or anything..sure i still hate some vegetables..but apart from that i feel nothing..only constant stress and looming all the time.

Anyone has any good advice for this?

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How do i move forward with life. Like i feel that i have been stuck in the same place, inside a same person for the past 4 years. I want to change, i really do...but at the same time, i say fuck it to anything..

For example, i push myself out of my comfort zone to do any task i want...like joining the dramatics club in my college, i will push myself, practice to join it. And i actually did want to join it but if i get selected, i'll suddenly lose all my interest for it, like it didn't even mattered..but i know i wanted it..

this thing is slowly affecting my life as well...i have no interest in anything..games, studies, friends, etc. not even in myself...i just lay down on my bd all day, only doing what is a must to do..like passing exams, eating, etc.
the things i used to have interest in like games, drawing dont even come to mind anymore

small tasks are now feeling like some kind of big thing to me..changing pillow covers shouldn't require more than 5 mins..but here i am, sitting from over an hour thinking and stressing about PILLOW COVERS..

I actually haven't changed it for over a month now, and god knows how long i've been stressing to do so.

In simple words, i don't feel like a person anymore.. i dont have a personality, hobbies, likes, dislikes or anything..sure i still hate some vegetables..but apart from that i feel nothing..only constant stress and looming all the time.

Anyone has any good advice for this?

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

heyyy! first off i want to say, congrats for coming forward and sharing this with someone. that in itself says that you feel the want and need for a change. and that is a very good first step. second off, honey, if im not wrong, i think you are burnt out. from always pushing yourself outside your comfort zone. sometimes, you need the comfort of your comfort zone. its great to try new things, but its also very important to once in a while, come back to the things you call home. and also, absolutely, no one says that changing pillow covers require 5 mins. there is no set rules for this baby. do whatever you feel like, however long it takes. dont ever let anyone tell you that you should change pillow covers in five mins. cause they dont know that this is not just about pillow covers. take your own time. if you feel stagnant in life, move. take a walk and feel the nature on your skin. go for a run, the whole day. blow off your work for a day, and just run around. or if you have more time, then take a trip, if you are in a permissable age of course. the point is, you get to rediscover life for the first time again. i know it sounds rather tedious, but you get to try new things, and figure out your likes and dislikes. so start small, try out a new recipe, or a new outfit. and then slowly, figure out the things you love and dont love. trust me, you got this!