Hi
2 years ago there was my brother wedding and during that wedding one my cousing around 2-3 years younger then me, she was sometimes rubbing my hands, sleeping on my head, hand holding, hand shakes and many more things which made me sexually appleaing and whenever she did this my p**i** got erect but I kept ignoring thing but she stil continued doing this for around 1 week and when it was our time to leave for our home the very last second day something unexpected happened I was sleeping with my cousins in a room on teraace and then she came and requested to sleep between me and one of other cousin and there was very little space in between us I told her that there is no space but then also she istieed that she wants to sleep here only and there was only 1 blanket and it was early morning and time of winter and then we tightly hugged and sleep and in sleep i don't know what happened to me I tried to press her boobs her first initial reaction was surpriesed and she was shocked what I was doing but I was in half sleep and I just thought that I was sleeping with my gf. So after 1-2 minutes she just wake up from there and went away and I again went to sleep after 2-3 hours I wake up everything was nomral until our time to leave she said that she wants to talk with me and then took me to a room and there she started shouting I told her that I was asleep I did it by mistake and not intnsionally and then I tolder her that I will talk with you later, on the same topic but I never had the courage to speak to her in my life, and now after almost 2.5 years of this incident there is my sister marriage and she is also coming to marriage so I was thinking that I should message her on insta.
I know that i did wrong, and also at that time I was pretty young still I am admitting there was my mistake 100% but what to do now ? I am feeling guilty of myself daily and I don't know what to say to her, as I have given her the trauma of lifetime which she will never forget in her life
Now what should I do sould I talk to her or not ?

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Hi
2 years ago there was my brother wedding and during that wedding one my cousing around 2-3 years younger then me, she was sometimes rubbing my hands, sleeping on my head, hand holding, hand shakes and many more things which made me sexually appleaing and whenever she did this my p**i** got erect but I kept ignoring thing but she stil continued doing this for around 1 week and when it was our time to leave for our home the very last second day something unexpected happened I was sleeping with my cousins in a room on teraace and then she came and requested to sleep between me and one of other cousin and there was very little space in between us I told her that there is no space but then also she istieed that she wants to sleep here only and there was only 1 blanket and it was early morning and time of winter and then we tightly hugged and sleep and in sleep i don't know what happened to me I tried to press her boobs her first initial reaction was surpriesed and she was shocked what I was doing but I was in half sleep and I just thought that I was sleeping with my gf. So after 1-2 minutes she just wake up from there and went away and I again went to sleep after 2-3 hours I wake up everything was nomral until our time to leave she said that she wants to talk with me and then took me to a room and there she started shouting  I told her that I was asleep I did it by mistake and not intnsionally and then I tolder her that I will talk with you later, on the same topic but I never had the courage to speak to her in my life, and now after almost 2.5 years of this incident there is my sister marriage and she is also coming to marriage so I was thinking that I should message her on insta.
I know that i did wrong, and also at that time I was pretty young still I am admitting there was my mistake 100% but what to do now ? I am feeling guilty of myself daily and I don't know what to say to her, as I have given  her the trauma of lifetime which she will never forget in her life 
Now what should I do sould I talk to her or not ?

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

You should definitely apologise her for whatever you did and how it made her feel no matter you were young or whatever but you should apologise. And don't hesitate about this so much okay! Just do it.