Hey there, I'm a 19 year old girl, who completed her bachelor this summer and now I'm doing an internship.....in two months I'm turning 20,and I'm ... scared and lost. I don't know what I'm going to do,not sure which masters I will do or if I even want to do that. I just want to leave my state ,and go away ....far for study but I'm not so sure about that. I belong from a middle class family and being the eldest daughter,it's kind of hard to just say I will leave and then leave. I have so many things to do....i am interested in content creation and storytelling. I have a lot of ideas for creating videos but I don't from where to start or how. Nowadays i just feel so lost and miserable, i don't know what to do. I just stick to my phone and keep mindlessly scrolling in night because if I let my thoughts wander for long it gets tangled and start uncontrollably crying, sometimes i even have difficulty in breathing and i don't know what to do anymore.

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Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

as a man with no female interaction -- i never understood this : "my thoughts wander for long it gets tangled and start uncontrollably crying" --like whyy just whyy ? you would cry over it ? i mean its because of you only right? or maybe your circumstances/luck . either change them or accept . 
i know you guys are emotional and dont know maybe how to process or express or someone to share them ,so crying maybe is the best option but still would love to know your /any other girls perspective on this