Hey, do you think I'll be okay, cause I lost someone, hence I'm not able to concentrate somewhere,not able to score well, don't know about my future,nor I am working hard enough but everytime I try to,it feels like I am being hard on myself,then I start to cry and i remember how I had this one person whom I could have gone,i trusted my life with but they are not more in my life,they are living their life somewhere, I feel like they don't care anymore,they were toxic to me but idk I felt loved too but sometimes I just wonder was it just me who saw the love, he didn't see my love. How could he just decide to not have me in his life and come a month later and tell me 'few moments of rage and you abandoned me for months ' , I would have done anything to be with him but then he came saying that, it wasn't like that,I tried till the very end and every end, my best , didn't care about any self respect,ego etc just to keep a bond. Do you get me?

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Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

First of all , a relationship is not just one sided but if you felt like this then it's better to walk away from such relations . You are the only one you should rely on and ik sometimes it's not as easy as it sounds but there's always something that would help you , you shouldn't depend on someone on such a level that if they are gone you cannot understand you feelings. You yourself are the only one that will understand yourself so first you should respect yourself and self esteem is the only weapon that will help you in life. If you do not respect yourself on your own then who else will, and a person who is yours will always respect you and always try to make you respect yourself but if they or not like that they are not your person. If someone loves you they will make you love yourself and even if they walk away they will never put your feelings down. 
The most important thing is that you rely on yourself for the time being because when you have no one you have yourself and you will have yourself all throughout your life so first find yourself.