Guys- help me . I honestly don't expect anything much here but here goes nothing -
I'm 18 and I'm a girl and I've been kinda questioning my sexuality? I don't know of I attracted to girls? All the crushes I've ever had were guys but there were certain girls that I admired way way too much am not sure it's just admiration?? I wanted to be as pretty as them but I also wanted to b e noticed by them? I wanted their life but also I've heard a lot of people say that their attraction to the same sex started out as jealousy- so again i'm not sure. I can't really talk about this with anyone I actually know . I do think the fact that I'm question should mean something? But then again it could be irrelavent. There was a girl who was pansexual in my class years back and I remember thinking That I wanted her to have a crush on me? she was all confident and cool and maybe lie a big maybe I could have liked her but I remember clearly wanting her to like me but that was also the time when I wanted people to have a crush on me 😭 so it wasn't really anything special also I've never NEVER been homophobic? When people around me are?? I just have a very live let live personality. Again I read tons of bls😭. So I mean help me out here? Do I give of a straight vibe here? Or if any queer people has experienced something like I did prior to realising they are queer? Or HOW they even knew they were queer?

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Guys- help me . I honestly don't expect anything much here but here goes nothing - 
I'm 18 and I'm a girl and I've been kinda questioning my sexuality? I don't know of I attracted to girls? All the crushes I've ever had were guys but there were certain girls that I admired way way too much  am not sure it's just admiration?? I wanted to be as pretty as them but I also wanted to b e noticed by them?  I wanted their life but also I've heard a lot of people say that their attraction to the same sex started out as jealousy- so again i'm not sure. I can't really talk about this with anyone I actually know . I do think the fact that I'm question should mean something? But then again it could be irrelavent. There was a girl who was pansexual in my class years back and I remember thinking That I wanted her to have a crush on me? she was all confident and cool and maybe lie a big maybe I could have liked her but I remember clearly wanting her to like me but that was also the time when I wanted people to have a crush on me 😭 so it wasn't really anything special also I've never NEVER been homophobic? When people around me are?? I just have a very live let live personality.  Again I read tons of bls😭. So I mean help me out here? Do I give of a straight vibe here? Or if any queer people has experienced something like I did prior to realising they are queer? Or HOW they even knew they were queer?

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

Straight girl here, Id say you're bi or pan, if you like girls, like em! Boys? Like em! Ive seen girls online and I'd think 'oo she hot' sometimes. Attraction doesn't mean long term for me, it's just until I scroll.. But if you're obsessed? I think it's safe to say you should follow what your heart desires!