“Feeling like shit might be the only constant thing in my life. I am 25 addicted to p@rn i relapse like every next day, I am trying to quit smoking as well and that's not going good either. I feel like all i ever wanted from life is to belong some where or to someone and that's never happen, I have spent most of my time alone and feeling lonely. I have trying social activites to connect with people but I am so shy that I feel like i just end up creeping everyone around me and killing the vibe of anyplace I entire. I have never been in love and I do long it. for it matter of fact the girl I had crush on, for (almost) 2year has found someone and all the while I wouldn't just ask her out cause I would get out of the head and I am beating my self now (not pun intended). I would like to stop feeling petty for myself but tbh what else can I be? Just a rant I guess more than a question”
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Someone answered with kindness...
You can research about your addiction like what is in it that makes you wanna go back to it . Then find some good hobby or thing that you like doing in your childhood and that can fill the emptiness of that stimulation .
Also about being shy and all . It's kind of because of how you perceive yourself. You have to make your self esteem and realise your self worth.
Also the question why is the answer for everything. You can just ask yourself, why are you addicted, why are you shy.
You have to work hard on yourself.
It is worth it. Give yourself a chance and perceive yourself as your lover. You will make it .