“dont know. I feel so lost in life. I think I have lost my purpose my charm my everything. Outside my life looks beautiful. A nice degree in a nice college good friends and a boyfriend too. What else one could ask for? But i just dont know. Also the guy i am dating everyone likes him for some reason idk i too but we dont go out that often my friends and thier so called male friends go out every week atleast twice in a week and we? We dont even talk we dont text we dont even go out. Everytime it feels like i am the one whose putting in all the efforts. Second to the last time i called him and we decided to go out he didnt even call me at the time we were supposed to go out he told he was at swimming and i was so mad i didnt pick up his call and he called me like ten twenty times and got drunk and asked sorry and all and everything was sorted and then afterwards i lost all my trust towards him hes the one who calls me everytime like once a week like when he is bored and does not have anyone to talk to or hangout with of course i am in love with him so i talk to him but i never call him last time he called and we decided to go put after like two months he again ghosted me saying he was out playing with guys and then again my ego got hurt and he called maybe ten times and asked sorry and all and i went out with him he talks nicely with me i dont know is it my lack of purpose in my life that is making me over analyse everything he is doing towards me and everything he is doing in his life i dont know man idk where to set boundaries and idk idk i feel so lost i just wanna leave everything and start my life over wish it all never existed fuck i feel so bad why would everything happen with me only and worst part is i tell this to no one and everyone thinks my life is perfect its not its noti hate myself i hate myself a lot what do i do?”
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Someone answered with kindness...
hiiiii tbh you look really really pretty even though i didnt see you today, secondly dude LEAVE THAT GUY, FRICK HIM SCREW HIM.
im telling you, you DESERVE BETTER, your bf sucks ass and doesnt know what a gem he has. if you are scared that ull never find love again or that ull be lonely then worry not, ur a girl and its gonna be hella easy for you.
even if you dont want it, take emotional dependence from your good friends. or make new ones, trust me its easier than it sounds.
you have a nice college so work hard in it, focus on your work.
work is worship lil one, ull do good.
ur in love with him but all this hurt will never ever do you any good.
he might also be cheating on you or some shit tbh trust me :sob: so cut your losses.
leave him and if he comes back begging and crying and wanting to change then act distant until he truly does change.
maybe a month or two ought to fix him.