Basically i was in a friends w benefits w this guy (we lived in a same building..basically my childhood frnd) …it lasted almost a yr …it was almost like a relationship but without a tag …then he shifted to another city for his studies and thats it we just stopped talking ….honestly saying he kinda cut me off ….but over the year i loved him soo almost after the a yr of no contact and i called and texted him that ‘i love u’ …he just said okay soo i understood
Now almost 5yrs later we’re now 21yrs old …we starter meeting again because of one of my closest frnd ( a guy) …we lit some cig ..had fun
Then we went on trip and i hot drunk and i made out with him ..now the other day my guy frnd started Blaming me that how I’ve not moved on how i was throwing myself at him and what not …and these two guys are bestfriends too …they kinda started avoiding me …..also i explained my guy frnd that i have moved on but ‘its just i haven’t touched anyone since 5yrs so my body is comfortable w him only thats why it happened in a flow flow state’ …then he goes and said ‘ oh..so even i can take u out for a night’ …like wtffff am i ?! A prostitute?! …
Im a kind of person who prioritise frndship over my self respect …i get it im wrong
But idk what should i dooo

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Basically i was in a friends w benefits w this guy (we lived in a same building..basically my childhood frnd) …it lasted almost a yr …it was almost like a relationship but without a tag …then he shifted to another city for his studies and thats it we just stopped talking ….honestly saying he kinda cut me off ….but over the year i loved him soo almost after the a yr of no contact and i called and texted him that ‘i love u’ …he just said okay soo i understood 
Now almost 5yrs later we’re now 21yrs old …we starter meeting again because of one of my closest frnd ( a guy) …we lit some cig ..had fun 
Then we went on trip and i hot drunk and i made out with him ..now the other day my guy frnd started Blaming me that how I’ve not moved on how i was throwing myself at him and what not …and these two guys are bestfriends too …they kinda started avoiding me …..also i explained my guy frnd that i have moved on but ‘its just i haven’t touched anyone since 5yrs so my body is comfortable w him only thats why it happened in a flow flow state’ …then he goes and said ‘ oh..so even i can take u out for a night’ …like wtffff am i ?! A prostitute?! …
Im a kind of person who prioritise frndship over my self respect …i get it im wrong 
But idk what should i dooo

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

there are action and their consequences.
if you dont like the results/consequences just change your actions /input..
nothing is totally wrong /right...
but remember in future you should'nt be regretting over those decisions..
when you had physical desires, you got physical with that guy , but then again you are judging that third guy for asking/projecting his opinions about the same?
best is to move on /leave your friend circle if you want to have a stable/long term relationship in future