all my life i thought i had a career path but soon enough i came to terms that it wasn't what i wanted my parents said to do it so i did it anyway started out just because but then i really got invested and i tried so hard for this to work but i failed now i am repeating it and everyone says I'll do it but what if i can't? i cant open my book due to this reason it scares me so much what do i do i started therapy and i couldn't get my words out also my whole year has been so worse i know i should not compare myself to my friends but i feel so behind amd lost while everyone is moving forward i feel so lost and i feel so trash what do i do

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Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

Got a bit long sryyy but I think it’ll def help u💕
I think I can resonate with you the most because I was in the SAME situation just a year back.
I thought I always wanted to become a doctor which was always my dream. Nobody forced me, being the eldest daughter there was no one to guide me, I was the one who looked into  the coaching classes compared them and asked my parents for admission, they trusted me and did get me admitted in one well known institutes.
I struggled keeping up. 
I caught a life threatening disease while I was in 11th. I stayed home and was in depression.
In 12th grade somehow I gave my boards but couldn’t attempt neet since I wasn’t prepared.
I decided to take a drop. I couldn’t clear it.
That yr itself gave me everything self doubt, fomo, I decided one thing I won’t take another drop.
Ykw? 
I did take another. But this education system failed me and I realized that it’s not just-YOU who’s responsible for your failure but also the ppl around you, ur mental peace and this rigged education system. Where they’ll set a papr so difficult u’ll lose everything. 
After all of this I was completely broken from inside and no self love left in me.
But I decided this one thing that whatever it is I won’t be attempting this exam again.
Because Ykw, it’s a loop.
That’ll keep u trapped and make u believe that everything that is there in this life is becoming a doctor.
And Ykw? If u become a doctor ppl will still criticise you for not being in freakin aiims Delhi.
One thing- ppl are never satisfied whatever u do.
So I just ended the loop and am now studying bds, I’m happy, I can see a lot of possibilities in front of me.
So just know this, give your best, but don’t get attached to the result too much.
I know u’ll do greatttt!
But great is not the only option.
Take it easyyy
Love yAaaaaa😙😙♥️♥️